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what a year! 2005 has been a wild rollercoaster ride in so many sense of the word. i've laughed, cried, acted crazy, remained sane, fought, made new friends, maintained contact with some, lost contact with others, gave, received, loved and lived. and discovered that i'm blessed beyond words. this year has been different from the other years of my life. because i'm finally deemed old enough to make my own choices and live with whatever consequences. because i've entered a new stage in life. because i've completed so many rites of passage. because there are few regrets. because i've showed my parents i'd fight for what i want and be responsible. because i've met so many interesting people. and because i've re-evaluated my concept of right and wrong and that contentment and happiness can be so glaringly simple still.
there are just too many memorable events to state. so i'll not be specific. the people i'm close to didnt really change. yay! there are certain things that were important to me that still remained important. there are certain things that lost their lustre. that being a good friend takes effort (for which i'm sometimes too lazy to put in), patience (which i often lack) and just being there. that sometimes, doing the right thing is the right thing to do despite it being difficult. that i've taken my family for granted too often. that some secrets are better off remaining...well...clandestine (hopefully, i'll continue to keep my mouth shut).
i'm grateful for all the people who are in my life. esp my parents who will always remain my sounding boards no matter how much we drive each other up the walls daily. actually, i should be more grateful to all my friends who remained my friends, enduring all my idiosyncracies and quirks, and didnt run away to the far side of the earth. i'm grateful for all those i've not known or kinda know who finally entered my life. and i'm grateful for my health despite subjecting crap to my body and the lack of proper diet and exercise.
hopefully, i'm a better person than in 2004. 2005 has beem a good year for me. so much so that i dont mind the whole year repeating and reliving it again. may the coming year be a wilder, more meaning, more full of surprises. may the people important to me still remain important and around. and that happiness continues to be something easily obtained :)
jacq | 10:37:00 AM
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