the supposed exam week
looking back at my short life so far, i've realised that there are really alot of stupid things that i've done. not that i have any regrets because i am not who i am today without all the experiences. but i cant help but think if things would have been different if i wasnt so silly then. and despite having to grow up and be more responsible (yadda yadda...) , i still engage in ridiculous behaviours at this very point of time. having full knowledge of the possible repercussions. i am fully aware that often, after taking the first step in a particular direction, there is no turning back to more innocent times. i dont think anything will be able to change this hidden risk-taking-stupidity-at-times streak in me.
anw, although i rant and raved about my parents, i'm grateful for the amount of trust they have in me. i can safely say that for 70% of the time, they have no idea what actually i've been up to. and to a very large extent, it is with this amount of freedom that i've enjoyed that makes me not want to let them down. i guess it is not very possible to totally step out of the life that your parents intend for you to lead. then again, i think it's better for their health if they kinda-know-but-not-actually as to what i've been doing and the people i hang out with (no offence whatsoever. hahas...) what they dont know wont kill them. what they do know will probably cause cardiac arrests.
i love the fact that exams are not a big part of my overall grades. because if they are and at the rate i'm going, i'm going to be totally screwed. i went shopping in the middle of an examination week. yup, i do have my priorities in place. the two wonderful years of slacking around in jc have forever warped my concept of studying. now i stress over the fact of being unstressed. i cant say for sure how well this system is working for me until the end of four years when (or if) i graduate. but am currently enjoying it. oh yarh... and i'm freaking cheap when it comes to clothes. i love bargains and the fact that i'm able to get alot out of very little cash.
jacq | 9:24:00 AM
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