too emotional
i know as a friend, i should be happy that she is doing what she wants and loves. but there is so much of me that wants to hang on to her. he asked if i was going to be alright with her leaving. i wished that the answer was yes. maybe if i cried enough now, i would not flood the airport and scare everyone cos me crying is not a pretty sight.
i wished that moments spent together could freeze in time.
i will be ok. eventually. but for this very moment, i'm going to be emotional and childishly resentful that she is truly honestly going to leave for nz already.
on a separate note:
i do enjoy every single feeling i've experienced because of it. still, it gets kinda tiring. i became exponentially happy and exponentially sad. basically, just crazier.
jacq | 11:48:00 AM
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