do i
do i really know what i'm doing? do i really need...? do i really understand the implications...? do i really consider...? do i really intend...? do i really want everything that i'm having right now or just deceiving myself?
i cant answer any of the above questions. all i know is that i'm happy where i am and dealing with life the way i choose to. whether i'll wake up one morning to regret everything reserves to be seen. at this point, i feel that i'm important to the people who are important to me and doing things i care about/for. which counts for somthing already.
after that particular epiphany, i just saw the light (am keeping my fingers crossed that this is not the light of an on-coming train though). i dont intentionally put on a facade, just different personas to different people. i'm just glad that at least one person i know of has seen the real multi-personas me. but am i really sure about that? strangely, searching for my identity and true self has been a mostly fun process. maybe i'll find them. maybe they'll elude me forever. still, process which counts right? and there will be certain things i intend to hold on to forever, no matter where my life leads me.
jacq | 12:17:00 AM
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