what it is
i think i'll eventually have to come to terms with my probably sucky grades three weeks from now. meanwhile, i'll bask in the short-lived euphoria of being on holiday at last. similar to other idiotic human beings, the ability to do something you really want to given the opportunity and time is not as thrilling as doing the same thing notgiven the opportunity and time. but i'm not complaining. i can go in search of deeping meaning in life etc etc etc. ultimately, i'm still having extremely frivolous pursuits. and i'll end up looking back in time marvelling the stupidity of the moments and nevertheless thankful that i went through them. my life as such.
part two of my epiphany (did i talk about part one in the first place? cant recall): focus on what it is rather than what it is not. it is one of the craziest thing i've done. it is one source of strength. it is part of my journey of self-discovery. it is a part of life i want to preserve. it is partially pseudo, partially real, always on the plateau of abstruseness. it is escapism from the real world yet not completely denied of it. it is my choice. it is mostly fun, laughter, peace and joy. it is something beautiful. and it is enough where it is.
i fulfilled my wedding vows to my tv. 3.5 hours out of the 5 hours i've been at home. for better or worse. :p
jacq | 11:35:00 PM
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