as i look back on all my past experiences, especially the past two years, i am grateful that i have gone through them. why the two years? because within the short span of time, i lost alot of my childish innocence. yet still very much intend to remain as a child. my contradictions are as such. cant say that i am a better person because i am in no place to judge. but i have emerged a little stronger, a little wiser and a lot more self-assured. most imptly, still happy and positive. i am not taking the path i thought i would. sure, i'm in university. but i'm struggling in school like i've never before. sure, i'm close to my family. but there are certain things that i would keep from them forever. my understanding of friendships, of love, of maturity, of responsibilities, of relationships, of trust and so many more have been redefined. if i have not gone through the pastt two years, many aspects of life still remain compartmentalised. there are certain things that changed more than i would ever have imagined, there are certain things that comfortingly remained as before. at the end of the day, i learnt to point at others less and look at myself more. people have questioned why i can see things as such. innocence, stupidity, enigmatic and well... maybe just uniquely positive and strangely me.
been catching up with people whom i love and miss. lover, son and roxy partner. did i tell you how much you mean to me?
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