the tiresome yet exhilarating, emotional rollercoasterish ride which makes me absolutely resent growing up. am still wondering what is supposed to happen on the 19th year of life which i missed such that today is as such.
i am thankful, for being able to share so many aspects of you which you hid from the rest of the world. but honestly, i'm wondering if the negative effects of everything that has been done, makes doing them such a good idea after all.
stressed doesnt even begin to describe it.
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