Wednesday, August 30, 2006

"But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be...

...If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leaving me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side"



perhaps i shouldnt have done what i did before national day last year.
then the beautiful illusions would still remain.
after all, actuality and fantasies are mutally exclusive.



btw, inez, my acquaintance to this song is thanks to you :)

yesterday


i ran, wearing a suit and barefooted, around suntec convention centre.
i feel that our welfare was taken care of and it's nice to be in service position and appreciated.
i was within arms' length of the president.
i heard an 11-year-old sing and she was better than all the idol participants put together.
i realised that my grade was proof that my best is not good enough.

it is weird to have the surrealism come crashing down and reality regain all within the period of12hours.

Monday, August 28, 2006

successful propaganda


for once, i see singapore's efficiency at work. they managed to transform an empty (many in fact, but i only saw one) exhibition hall into two-storey offices complete with rooms and reception areas and caferteria. drats! i'm mountain tortoisey. actually, despite all the disruptions to school and having to wake up damn early to paint my face and not yet figuring out how to get there thanks to the million road closures, i'm excited. even though i know i wont be able to recognise all the famous people without the aid of name tages, it's going to be one interesting experience (flaws and all). yup.. i am at the bottom of the food chain but what the heck! it's going to be like SYF/NDP 2000. moan and bemoan. but when it's over, i'm going to be rather glad that i took part (provided i dont fall behind in school too much -keeping fingers crossed-).

love the fact that i can talk to dad about many things. he's really my ultimate sounding board. and kudos has to go for anyone who has to endure at least 15min of my chatter daily within an hour of seeing me. cheers for the man of my life!! :D
as for the sometimes there but otherwise MIA guy of my life, i'm still trying damn hard to get the thought of him out of mind. argh! hopefully, time is going to help. but i guess he'll always remain a part.

i just like having things to do. cos i'm happy, knowing what i want and am doing them (or at least moving towards starting on them). and most importantly, not holding back and not regretting.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

inappropriate and insane


from an interview of sandra bullock:
"You just want that in the end, even if they never meet - this person gave her and she gave him the safety to express and to fully be themselves outside of the world they created for themselves. For someone to be true to their instincts even though it goes against every logical path that society would want you to take is pretty incredible. Those people are few and far between who make a choice in life that goes against the way they think things should be."

it is tough knowing that something is technically going nowhere and is in absolute contrast with the rest of ordinary life. yet you want this something to maintain status quo. as of now, i am thoroughly ambivalent. and wont mind divine intervention. anws, i refuse and fight it from consuming who i can and will be. it's difficult not to feel godforsaken-despondent-depressed-cynical (as TM by the lovely kay who is suing me so i mightaswell plagiarise all the way) in light of the challenges we face in daily living.

but i am not struggling to survive. so i shall learn to complain less and appreciate more, to expect less and be surprised more, to count the already have(s) and not the want to(s). basically just be a better human being. and grow up a little bit more each day.


out of point: i miss hanging out at the odac table. and i miss watching karen dance, both literally and metaphorically.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

a certain university is:

screwing me inside out and upside down.
making me kill a lot of trees.
full of relentless muggers and creepy freshies.

i'm undecided over whether to laugh (cos i asked for it) or to cry (cos i often not know what i got myself into until it's too late to pull out).

nice conclusions for the first week of school.

desiderata


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

~Max Ehrmann

inez, kat, sh, yz


it was madness. we ate at least 10 plates each, as though we have not eaten for the past 10 years. conversations were as frivolous and as bitchy as always. it was as if time stood still as far as our relationships are concerned and we were back in malan road all over again. i've said a million times but being a saint surrounded by all my fellow saints was the best time of my life. the true test of friendship is when there is absolutely one irritating thing you cant stand about that friend but has long accepted that as part of him/her. my beloved girls reminded me of it yesterday. very often, when we try so hard to move on and up in life, we lost focus of that. we did what we do best - nothing. yet it was the most fruitful 5 hours of my entire week.


still chasing, still dreaming

now i recall that it is within my power to wallow in self-pity and lament the things i lack or appreciate the stuff i enjoy and have. as of today, i shall remember to be thankful and not fuss so much over the things i cant get. at the end of the day, life and happiness can be as simple and easily attained as you want them to be. certain experiences will constantly haunt and bombard. but such experiences ought to complement the other aspects of life instead of being the primary focus. so what if i have not found the middle ground between either and or? so what if something gotta give eventually? in life, there is often more than just two choices.

although you girls did nothing out of the ordinary (since our lives are so fraught with craziness in the first place :p), thank you for making me realise and remember.

it's back to being carefree, young, clumsy and mad again!!

Friday, August 25, 2006

human resource
finance
marketing
psychology

decisions, decisions.

reality check


ripped off huiz's

So Far in 2006, I have:

[x] been in school
[x] made a new friend
[ ] fallen out of love
[x] done something you swore never to
[x] lied
[x] laughed until you cried
[ ] stole(n) something
[x] went behind your parents back
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[ ] kept one of your new years resolutions
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[ ] met someone who changed your life
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[ ] almost died
[ ] lost someone
[ ] been to the hospital
[x] gotten close to someone
[ ] streaked
[x] cried over someone
[x] given up something important to you
[ ] talked on the phone all night
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try
[x] found out who your true friends were (actaully, i always knew who they are)
[x] made a total fool of yourself (a daily ritual)
[x] met great people
[ ] gotten really drunk
[x] missed someone

damaged


i honestly want to be optimistic. to be able to see the positive side of things. to be trusting. to not have to think twice before saying something. i wished that i was sheltered. but that happens to be an impossiblity. i dont want to fight battles. i want to believe that love conquers all. i dont want to manipulate. i want to believe that everyone does things out of goodwill. i dont want to appear strong. i want to believe that exposing your vulnerabilities wont eventually lead to being backstabbed. i dont want to compartmentalise. i want to believe that people can treat others equally. i dont want to become jaded. i want to belive that ultimately, human nature is kind and there will always be the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. unfortunately, the 'dont want to'(s) always seem to hapen and the 'want to belive'(s) are few and far away.

i wished that i was still perfectly innocent and happily ignorant in this world. all the illusions remain and the cold hard reality hidden.

still, i know that i should be contented with my lot in life. it's just not very part of human nature to be contented i guess.

i could choose to be bitter. to blame the whole world even. yet from day one, i have been clearly aware that all will end up leading to the point of no return. yes, i become more damaged as a person and wished that i wasnt. bottom line is: i could have walked away but didnt so i have to live with it. harbouring resentment is damn tempting but i know that i've a long way ahead of myself and being miserable is definitely pointless.

total freedom of thought and independence of self. i want to regain that for a long long time. it is not as if everything has been the same anw so i'm not giving up all that much. it's all for the best. and the first step towards repairing myself.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

nonchalant


after one year of romantism, i've decided to wake up. that somethings will never be more than what they are. compromising has made me a lesser person than who i really am. i've learnt that i am capable of being vulnerable. but letting a person into your life to walk all over you is plainly a dumb thing to do. i'm glad that i've decided to screw everything else and be crazy. but i'm not going to let anyone screw around with me. i'm not that kinda person to harbour hopes on being given the things i deserve. hell, i'm going to fight and get what i deserve. losing is not an option. unless i choose to lose.

after one year of romantism, i've decided to wake up. that my best doesnt mean anything and that i'll never be on par with all the smart asses out there. that i have to leave with whatever effort (or lack thereof) i've put in. that this is the choice i fought so hard for so i refuse to let it burn me. that it was naive to continue to be naive in the first place. that believing in people seeing past the perfect 'A's to be the final goal is stupid. it's singapore we are talking about.

it is difficult to not be drawn into the hell hole. it's my $26k (and so much more misc costs) at stake. it's the 'why is everyone doing well but you're lagging behind' that i will have to contend with. you cant put a measure to every single thing but ridiculous people like you and me do it anw. since i cant change the world i'm in, i just have to find something in me to deviate from the norm or the courage to continue and put up with all the nonsense being thrown at me.

maybe more cynical. but definitely more nonchalant. caring too much about anything hurts. not caring at all is not who i am. so while things sort themselves out (when you leave things alone long enough, they eventually do), i will remain nonchalant. moreover, this is going to be a hectic sem with authorities believing that we are super humans who can freeze time. what is new?

life sucks. but it still goes on.

Monday, August 21, 2006

new record


18 hours straight of project discussion cum report churning.
and today happens to be only the first day of school in the new year.
plus i am blogging this in LKCSB right now. nice!

i dont intend to break this record any time soon.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

scars


[papa roach]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life


perhaps i'm angsty but i cope much better with work with hard rock blasting. i can never be a calm and serene person. sheesh!
if only if life was simplier.

Friday, August 18, 2006

drugs


sinking,
swimming in the great unknown.

shouting,
struggling to get out.

pain
anguish
intense
numb

and it is done over and over again.

instead of studying


i am glad that moving on was never a decision i would not make. difficult yet correct thing to do. guess i am just uncompromising. granted, for this whole year, i got side-tracked alot. still, the life that was planned after getting my A level cert is ontrack. the perceptions changed, the ultimate goal remains the same.

impressing was never something that i've tried to do.
impressing is superficial.
strong bonds are formed when one is comfortable showing the ugly side.

this is why i am her royal highness. always occupying a significant spot but never enough, not quite complete.
and i relish being in this role.
(narcissist!)

now, back to thinking of how to murder all the smart asses so that they will not be around to shift the bell curve...

Thursday, August 17, 2006

regression


my brain is being wrecked.
maximise potential my ass.
i should bloody hell just find someone rich to marry so that i can stop killing whatever little brain cells i have left already.

if the regression lines are to be plotted, i am sure that there is a strong relationship between what i'm doing now and the downward spiral of my health but little (if any) between what i'm doing now and where i eventually end up in the future.

fucking crap!


still...
"I like living. I have sometimes been wildly despairing, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all, I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing." Agatha Christie

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

still the little girl


i'm happily prancing about doing what i do best (generally) - nothing. i do understand that it is nothing to shout about. but since i'm never going to be that big, extraordinary person, i might as well live and be glad that i am mediocre. hey! being alive is already something to celebrate :)

we tend to put incredulous expectations on people we care a lot about. which is why they bear the brute of our unahppiness and anger. expectations are such vague things. in my attempt to be more matured, i will try not to have too many expectations of those i love. because they all have their own lives to lead. it's comforting to know that they will be around when the need arises even if they are seldom around in most ordinary cases.

and no matter how much i grow up (or dont), i will never cease 3 persons' little girl. so unfortunately for them, they will always get to see the most real and often not very pretty side of me. oops!

intentions


for a person who hardly plan, i already have life worked out for me (pun intended).

the next three years, married to school (and tv).
the rest of life before retirement after the next three years, married to work (and tv).

who says i lack foresight?

on a separate note, i wont consider myself effectively bilingual. but i'm glad my mum forced me to take chinese seriously. and succeed in doing that.


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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

hurdle


it wasnt the way i intend to cross it.
but for better or worse, i will have to live with it.

things will be different.
until i have found the elusive middle ground.

still, thank you for caring despite not understanding.
and for watching and helping me grow up.

bottom line:
i intend to keep you around for every single milestone of my life.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

simple kind of lovely


[maroon 5]
Leaning on a tree trunk
Thinking all the same junk
Fallin in and out of a dream

Back and forth i'm swaying
I'm contemplating staying
Laying and decaying when i know i must leave

Where do i am when i shoot the breeze
How do i call myself at times like these

I need a simple kind of lovely
The thought is just a novelty

You can spend the whole time
Dangling from a grape vine
Standin underneath you when they cut you free

What about when the sun leaves
and What about all those bad dreams
Who will walk you back into reality

I wish this could be like this everyday
But i know that i could never live this way
Was just a simple kind of lovely
The memories will be okay

I wish things could be like this everyday
But i know i could never live this way
Was just a simple kind of lovely
and the memories will be okay

Was jus a simle kind of lovely
and the memories will be okay

just the kinda song to chill to on a lazy sunday morning. unfortunately, i have to pretend that i am chilling. but i refuse to let anything spoil my good mood despite the mountainload of work. O.B.L.I.G.A.T.I.O.N.S. to the (hopefully impressive looking) cert that i will get the end of three more years. i am seeing this as short term pain to long term gain. yes, delusional, but please dont try talking me out of it :p

thank you for showing that i still exist in your life. sorry for still being MIA. somehow, someday, sometime, i will make up to all of you. promise.

fun quote: "Dont be so humble. You are not that great." Golda Meir

Saturday, August 12, 2006

men of my life


if you are all that important and special, my presence wouldnt have mattered. chew on that.
possession is hardly the key.
as the cliche goes, the hunter has now become the hunted.

veni, vidi, vici (i came, i saw, i conquered)
so now i will go do my little celebratory dance.
i am infallible~~ lala


despite all his nagging and insistence of his way or the highway, he's one cool person.
despite all the sarcasm, he will be the first person to extend his help when i need it.
despite all the "you talk too much", he still listens to me bitch.
despite all the lack of curfews and seemingly lack of concern, he will forgo sleep to drive me to my destination early in the morning, for something that he doesnt even approve me in doing.
despite all the threats he made, he doesnt have the heart to carry them out.
despite all those times he feel that i should spend more time at home, he still financially supports my social activities.
despite all the times he made me cry for the past 20 years, he means to me a great fucking deal.
to the current (and forever more) man of my life, love you dad!

continuous narcissism and verbal diarrhoea


is my perceptions screwed for good? probably. but it's so easy to want to hide under a cocoon of perfection and pretend that ambiguities do not exist. nothing surprises me much anymore. which is a good thing cos when the really detrimental, shocking stuff comes snowballing at me, i'll be able to hold my shoulders high and fight the demons. one can only get stronger.

it is so easy to point your finger at others and be full of bitterness. not so easy to raise above it all. and i want to be the classy girl who is able to do this. getting there. slowly but surely.

ranking people according to importance is a sick, sick thing to do. all of us do it anyway. it's a whole world full of sick people.

i've fulfilled my do-one-scary-thing-a-day goal. at least today. and yes, someday down the road, i expect it to come back and bite me in my ass. i will worry about it then. wearing my heart on my sleeve (to a certain extent) and saying things that really bother me are not going to serve me so well in this PC society. but with whatever little youth and innocence society claim i have, i am going to abuse this power until i'm officially an adult. (time, you can stand still now!)

and at the end of the day, those who mattered still do. it's only in hope that they know they do.

Friday, August 11, 2006

to laugh or to cry?


me should stop looking for stuff. cos when i stop looking, they suddenly appear right in front of me. no warning. just the effect. how ironic. actually, my rudimentary brain cant process this strange phenomenon that always seem to happen. so i cant decide whether i should laugh or cry.

"daytime friends. nighttime lovers." damn! i should take a photo of the advertisement. i know it's not meant to sound/mean that way but how can i let that go when it's glaring at us in front of kenny rogers?

if anyone overheard us, i would be mistaken as a bi (which doesnt seem that much an inpossibility at this pt in time. hahahs... dont worry all my girlfriends, you babes are all still very safe from sexual harrassment.) but honestly, females are so much more fun to look at. and being born a female, it gives me liberty to do so in plain sight. ha!



"I need an alarm system in my house
So I know when people are creepin' about
These people are freakin' me out (these days)
It's getting hectic everywhere that I go
They won't leave me alone
There's things they all wanna know
I'm paranoid of all the people I meet
Why are they talkin' to me
And why can't anyone see

I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live"

~good charlotte



at this moment, i am so in love with myself. yes, i will probably screw up for finance. yes, the pile of work to be done still seems like a mountain load. yes, a lot of crap in life still remain as crap. but no one will love me more than me. so i am going to DO JUST THAT. :)

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

i have the most enjoyable day today. similar to what i do every single public holiday when school term starts - sitting amid tons of paper and burying my head in work. i mean how much more enjoyable can this wonderful day be? oh yes, did i remind you that this is not part of the actual academic semester yet? such an incredible precedence for the coming second year.

people should start looking up the meaning of holiday in the dictionary.

parody (of sorts) to cry


I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And time ended so soon
I was all by myself
Trying damn hard to memorise
I was changed

In places no one will find
All the formulas fuzzi-fied
It was there that I realized
That finance is screwing my mind
The moment it made me cry

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

hard candy


i'm not going into a 'men are bastards' rant. despite being subjected to parts and parcels of it during proj discussion today. cos with my dad and many others, i know for a fact that there are many good men out there. and i've yet (hopefully never) been hurt by guy(s) to conclude that i'm swearing off the opposite sex for the rest of my life. but really, how many of us actually (ok... i'm generalising based on the female friends around me) go through half our lives being a fraction of who we can and ought to be because of so-called r/s problems?

yes, i can hardly claim to being an expert on the big R word, but let's just look at the whole issue from a logical pov. say you spend the past 1.5 years with your ex and live up to say, 75 years of age (with better health care, it's no longer going to be 75 but let's take a conservative estimate). with a little bit of calculation, that occupies a mere 2% of your life. maybe i dont get it so can someone enlighten me as to why 2% is worth giving up on the rest if the 98% ?

move on with life. i know, i know... easier said than done. still, what's the point of going through life if you intend to cry over the same mistake over and over again, and never wanting to learn from it? for those who think that i'm an unsympathetic, sheltered girl who has never seen enough of life to make the above comments, think again. cos the thought of you knowing me is laughable.

stop dwelling on the what if(s) and what should have been(s). life is too short for that.

"Was I born a cute vindictive little bitch or did society make me that way?"

Monday, August 07, 2006

in my world


yes, great. i feel like crap right now. my body has this funny and amazing way of holding up through crunch time and absolutely breaking down right after. so now's the throat is scratchy, nose is runny, muscles feel as though i moved a ton of bricks yest. and guess what? the amount of things i have to complete is right in front of me, making me want to just rip everything apart.

i will stay sane, i will recover, i will complete all the frigging rubbish.

anyhows, i should be employed to carry out psychological warfare. cos i derive perverse pleasure from making people suffer, by being nice. after all, it's so much easier to hate someone nasty than to attack someone nice. so yes, dont get on my wrong side. and wake up to smell the coffee. it's about time. btw, parents refused to tell me what they think my biggest flaw/problem is. so am guessing it's something major but they know that i wont listen to them even if they told me. in this aspect, they are damn cool!

as can be seen, i am delirious.

Sunday, August 06, 2006

between


all our lives, we try so hard to categorise everything when we live in a world without clear demarcation of blackness and whiteness in the first place. perhaps i'm just trying to prove a point. perhaps i'm just tired of having to fit in and please the world. perhaps i've finally figured out that i'm accountable to no one other than myself. so comment all you want; small minded people hardly bother me.

anws, i cant do charity sales cos people find it easy to reject me just as i find it easy to reject people. i've discovered the best way to avoid people (or more like them avoiding you) in town is to appear to be asking for donations. i had half the road to myself just for holding onto the donation bag. rather amusing actually.

jc was the best time i had in my education career so far. the whole sch culture as well as the incredible people. i miss the slacking. i miss the hanging out at the odac table and coming up with absurd theories amist proposal discussions. i miss the million and one breaks that we end up bitching. i miss the crazy letsdoeverythingelsebutstudy. i miss the familiar faces and the unique (sometimes mad) personalities of my friends most of all.

told huiz that i'm in a state of in between. like how i'm not exactly proud of doing/not doing certain things. but not exactly ashamed of doing/not doing them either. looks like for now, i'm moving forward yet looking back at the same time. uncomfortable but still bearable. strange but still acceptable.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

pussy cats


people tend to focus on negativity for most of their lives that they forget how to look on the good side of others. sure, there may be one or two or three or a bunch of smart-alecy ones who try to be smart-alecy (duh). but if you ignore the nonsense sufficiently, they tend to stop trying to irritate you after a while. plus being judged by sec sch kids is really not part of my concerns. i dont need them to like me so long as they take something back. if they like me, it's a bonus. if they dont, so long as they participate and i deliver what i'm supposed to, then i'm happy.

i'm doing this workshop at the expense of alot of things. of sch work and stupid finance proj plus quiz.

of half of Rature 2006. to digress, the odac guys are still themselves (oks... i will admit it. i miss them and their crappiness and irrelevancies and the ability of plucking topics out of nothing.) and those who watched last year's concert, dont worry cos you didnt miss much. last year's was definitely better. as mr gopalan put it, we could hear the music this year but cant really see/feel the dance.

of sleep. of good skin. of dead brain cells (from stressing myself over the things i'm expected to cover.) of being nagged for having split priorities. at the end of it all, making a difference to even one person makes it all worthwhile. and they may not know it but i'm more inspired by them than they by me.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

simple


all it took was one snail mail from a friend at the end of a long, stressful, rushed and tiring day to perk me up.
you wont see this but thanks nazhar!! :D