between
all our lives, we try so hard to categorise everything when we live in a world without clear demarcation of blackness and whiteness in the first place. perhaps i'm just trying to prove a point. perhaps i'm just tired of having to fit in and please the world. perhaps i've finally figured out that i'm accountable to no one other than myself. so comment all you want; small minded people hardly bother me.
anws, i cant do charity sales cos people find it easy to reject me just as i find it easy to reject people. i've discovered the best way to avoid people (or more like them avoiding you) in town is to appear to be asking for donations. i had half the road to myself just for holding onto the donation bag. rather amusing actually.
jc was the best time i had in my education career so far. the whole sch culture as well as the incredible people. i miss the slacking. i miss the hanging out at the odac table and coming up with absurd theories amist proposal discussions. i miss the million and one breaks that we end up bitching. i miss the crazy letsdoeverythingelsebutstudy. i miss the familiar faces and the unique (sometimes mad) personalities of my friends most of all.
told huiz that i'm in a state of in between. like how i'm not exactly proud of doing/not doing certain things. but not exactly ashamed of doing/not doing them either. looks like for now, i'm moving forward yet looking back at the same time. uncomfortable but still bearable. strange but still acceptable.
jacq | 1:30:00 PM
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