"i dont and can never hate you."
i resent the above sentence. while it holds the most positive meanings and sincerest emotions, there are always some negative repercussions following the statement. it is not just dejavu. in the most disconnected ways, you two are so alike. yet so fundamentally different. but i cant take away the image of all hell breaking loose should your paths cross. but well, i am the lowest common denominator, so things are pretty much within my control. i hope.
a little more apprehensive, a little more appreciative.
a little foolish, a little wiser.
caught between.
even if i sound like, i am far from being depressed because i know what i want. just irritated with all the melodrama.
but issues have to be reconciled one day and i've done more than enough already.
no matter the result, i am grateful for all those who have walked me through.
"I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions"
~ natasha bedingfield's unwritten
jacq | 5:11:00 PM
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