who they are
"It's about people who, utimately, are stuck in an undeclared war zone, and there's no way for them to get out, We watch them get deeper and deeper into it, and as much as they flail about and try to get out, and maybe one or two have good intentions, the others are who they are." ~ Martin Scorsese
"How many people in real life walk the straight and narrow? Not too many... Almost everyone else is just doing what they can in a state of almost complete confusion, usually trying to do the right thing, but sometimes, you know, it's a complicated world." ~ William Monahan
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means for me to face reality, to have my bubbles burst, but to still see the good and positivities of the things and people around me. cant say that i'm not bothered but i look back and see myself making the same choices again if there are second chances. many would see as ammoral. yet it's funny because many go through life refusing to see and admit to the truths around and thus never learn. if i have to fall, i choose to pick myself up and emerging stonger each time.
perhaps a better arrangement would be worked out to reduce some of the dysfunctionalities. perhaps this is precisely our normal. but come what may, i want to remain so for a long time. perhaps once the flaws are discovered, i would no longer be held in the same esteem. but i'm glad to have been able to make a difference.
still the enigma. because i think when the day comes that i completely figured myself out, i stop living.
jacq | 10:51:00 PM
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