fling-ing proclivity
i always believe in being true to oneself and never fooling around with another's feelings. yet i've been drawn into something called the game. so i'm still miles away from being even qualified and it's just damn hard to come up with enough half-truths to get away with it completely unless i get my own pad. while certain personality traits slightly hint this inclination, i'd never expect to come close to leading this life.
anws, i pretty much got my not so innocent mind corrupted and become more messed up than before. cant beat therefore join - illustration of competitive streak.
the best case fling scenario is to having someone whom i can confide in, feel absolutely comfortable with, once in a while have deep, meaningful conversations, and finally me NOT falling in love with him (or them for that matter). pretty difficult standards to meet no?
although the falling in part of love frustrates me, ultimately i cant choose it but it chooses me. and i have come a long way, in the maturity of thoughts and their consequential actions.
i'm way too young to think about settling down even if my peers seem to be doing so already. i'm less than a quarter way through my life's journey. one goodfriend has concluded that i'm a slut. of course i cant say that i'm proud to be seen as so but this is as real as i get.
the game awaits.
jacq | 10:22:00 PM
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