typically alpha
now that i have suitably calmed down and dont feel like commiting genocide towards the rest of mankind, i shall talk about something more mundane but a huge factor in my life: school.
never have i been more wrong into thinking that i got the best of both worlds since my course of study is neither arts nor science. now i have BOTH a mountain load of readings (fulfilling the arts part) and crappy technical stuff to fig out (fulfilling the science part). especially fun when doing either makes me want to go to dreamland and not return forever.
then there are overly enthusiastic people of whom one labels as project groupmates. enthusiasm which lasts for about 15 seconds. who send emails to request for meetings only disappear from the face of the earth thereafter.
the soul sucking institution i am in is making me miss out on two overseas trips in feb. i know i am going to get whacked for saying i have zero social life. since i still meet up with friends on a weekly kinda basis (anything that is more than having lunch/dinner/supper in school chalks up a notch here) and am somewhat dating. but the kinda and somewhat indicate my bloody one and only commitment to s.c.h.o.o.l.
to date: i have 10 hours worth of tv in the backlog to clear. and everyone knows how cranky i get when i cant spend time with the husband.
i conclude that i dont walk. i march. causing myself to neglect and overlook a lot of things around which i ought to have paid attention to. my second conclusion is that with my terribly alpha personality, i will probably die when i hit 40. which means that i'm technically halfway through my life already. one positive from the conclusion is not having to worry about dying a frigid old maid cos i would be dead before i get to that. ha.
and i still have yet figured out how to slow down or to not overcommit or to be less volatile.
jacq | 4:44:00 PM
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