I know there's so much more to life
Now I know I can shine a light
To find my way back home"
not even close to figuring out the world and dont pretend that i have. neither am that innocent sheltered angel who thinks that everything is fluffy, sweet and wonderful. i would think i possess sufficient cynicism to not be fooled too much. it does occur to me that i can be a little less aggressive, a little more obliging to make my life a little easier. after a while, i get kinda tired of having to clear the misunderstandings of the true intentions behind my actions that i think i ought to be... well... less volatile.
there are always distractors and people who hate my guts. there are always also real friends who stick by despite seeing the most horrible, bitchy and intolerable sides of me. seeing how i havent screwed up much of living yet, i think i will still pretty much be this combustible thing who drives people nuts.
havent decided if it is a good or bad thing to not be treated as a girl (in most cases) due to my personality though.
sidenote #1: when you make use of whatever unscrupulous ways to get what you want, would you admit that you are humanly imperfect and move on with life? or would you choose to put yourself on a supposed untouchable pesdestal and hope to stay there forever?
sidenote #2: hate IE. but love my IE babes. for the hardwork. for having to sit through my exclamations. for the crazy number of hours spent together doing the same thing. for our ability to scare all the guys in bizcom :p still, we ought to impose quotas on our collaboration for we would want to have lives outside GSRs yarh?
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