diamonds
personal:
can be quite the drama queen, i admit to that. but when how i feel is dismissed, i get VERY pissed. really, it is not very difficult to be sympathetic. just stop rationalising and acknowledge. one doesnt even need a lot of words or brains to be able to do that.
it is rather pessimistic to conclude that we are all alone in this world. really, it is impossible to understand another human being. because most of the time, we are too preoccupied with agonising over our own lives and problems to give much of a fuck anyway. the whole thing about building and maintaining relationships is that there are always agendas. there is no such thing as no strings attached or "just doing it because".
and when relationships with people fail me, it once again brings to light that depending on oneself is the fundamental route to take.
professional:
in all the (slightly more than) twenty years of life, i have figured that it is risky for professional life to cross into social circle and vice versa. too much is at stake and there will be the question of where to draw the lines. it is too simplistic to think that we can compartmentalise the two.
why is this especially troubling? because i'd like to think that i'm good to work with on a professional aspect but becomes somewhat monstrous when things/people cross into the personal realm.
"Whether we fall by ambition, blood or lust, like diamonds, we are cut with our own dust." John Webster
jacq | 10:13:00 AM
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